memoirs of small boy

recently..alot of memories kept flasing back in my mind.i still remember clearly the first day i saw rambo.i came home around 2am after yumcha session with friends and i saw rambo in the kitchen.daddy block the kitchen way using a cardboard but rambo kept escaping from the cardboard and ran to me.he is the first puppy i saw and touch in my whole life.he was three months old that time.he was very cute and very timid.very small and light as well.our story begin from that moment on.everyday i will babysit him.feed him and play with him because i just finish my spm and havent start work yet.i guess that really helps in tighten the bond between me and him.i still remember his first bark was to a white teddy bear aunty gave to him.at first he was very afraid of the teddy bear but soon enough he was already raping the bear with all sorts of position.he even bite the bear up to his little sofa daddy gave to him to sit.then his legs got stronger and he started to have a new hobby which is jumping around.we started to give him all sort of nickname from small boy to monkey boy to kangaroo boy.he will answer to all anyway.i always hug him to sleep on my bed until he was big enough to stay outside the house.but yet i'm his top favourite person?what a funny boy.one year later daddy bought lucky home and they dont really like each other.though lucky is cute but yet i still prefer rambo because to me rambo is more obedient than lucky.time really flies when i saw rambo with all the drips in his tiny hand last monday..i know he's old.i know he cant jump anymore,cant play with me anymore.nicole and bro kept telling me that i have to let him go but i was in deep depression.i started to talk to myself.lying to myself that he'll be fine the day after but deep down i know he will never be fine.i know he'll be leaving me.the truth is i cant accept the fact that he's leaving.i cant accept the fact that i cant touch him,cant play with him anymore.i'm sure he's happy now no matter where he is because he know i loves him alot though he's gone and i'm sure i will never be able to get another dog soon because i cant endure the pain at all..the pain of losing something so important in my life.